Have you ever entertained the idea of just going nuts?
I've often felt so overwhelmed that I thought about "Just Losing It". So, sometimes I fantasize on the luxuriousness of the idea.... Hmmmm. Maybe the first thing I would do is just put on some deep-red lipstick, all crooked and stuff. But, no, that's not going to work, I only wear pastel lip gloss and if I have to go to the store to buy my supplies of lipstick -then forget about it.
Then, I thought, well... I could run down my street, naked. First, I have to wonder, where would my running destination be? Also, I really need to do some crunches before this escapade. Too much work.
I do talk to myself, in first person, though. Yes, I answer myself, but that is good, too. Sometimes, I am my own best friend. So, that doesn't count.
How else shall I go just, absolutely, nuts?
I thought about developing a twitch in both my left-side shoulder and eye. That would be a fun one. Especially on public transportation, or at Wal-Mart. But, it takes a whole bunch of physical effort to do so all day, which seems extremely difficult and taxing on the body.
I figure, If I have to plan my crazy-ness, then it's not meant to be. At least, not at the moment. It should be something I don't have to think about or even realize is occurring, right?
So, I rebel. Big time! I stay up way later than one should on a work night. Sometimes, I garden without gloves... that's right! I really get in there with the dirt and my fingernails.
So, I rebel. Big time! I stay up way later than one should on a work night. Sometimes, I garden without gloves... that's right! I really get in there with the dirt and my fingernails.
For the most part, I tell all of you my real feelings...Now, is that nuts or what?
How do you really let it loose?
I remember the days when I contemplated either 'going crazy' or committing a crime that would get me jail time. Being locked in a room with books to read, TV to watch, and no responsibilities seemed like Heaven. Unfortunately only Heaven seems like Heaven, so I just endured and tried to bloom where I was planted. Sometimes it evens works!!
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